to you i never seem to understand anything

I'll slit my throat
With the knife I pulled out of my spine
Maybe when you find out that I'm dead
You'll realize
And if my lungs still let me breathe
Would you be there for me?
I can't sleep
Realize all these things that you took from me
Smash my heart
Into dust
Suffocate my mind
Tear at me from inside
How can I ever stop you from crushing my soul?
It was yours, all yours to begin with
I used to make the light shine for you
The sun has now left my sky
Velvet walls surround my sorrows
I've sacrificed my pride
And now you throw it all away
A shattered memory that you would stay
Through thick and thin with me
You gave up on me
The end begins
I can't escape as it pulls me further into anesthesia
Tear down my sense of conviction
Corrupt my soul
The end begins
In my eyes
In my heart
I have laid upon a deadman's bed
The bright light beams
From her eyes
Like broken glass
Or a broken heart
Who would have guessed?
You'd leave me here
Beneath my eyes I feel the tears
I hold back
As my legs
Start to shake
I feel nothing
I wanted you
I needed you
But you weren't there for me this time