i threw away my pride for u, taking the blame for every single thing, even convincing myself that everything was my mistake. i accepted every single thing, but in the end it's no use. u even lie to me. i guess u're living very happily now, with new friends and him. thats good for u. haiz. wad's becoming of me? there seems to be shouting in my house almost everyday, things r getting much worse. i'm like a ghost wandering around the world with no heart n mind, a body that's hollow. i'm lying my emotions to everyone, i can smile n laugh with my friends,, my parents, but inside me there's n stir of emotions at all. i'm even losing faith in God now. no one can ever understand how i feel, it seems my soul is sucked away bit by bit every second, living me with nothing.

I don't know why I miss you so much
I don't know why I still feel your touch
You left me feeling high and dry
With nothing, nothing but the queston why
I guess you had another direction
And leaving me with nothing but a dead connection
If you call me today
I'll say that I'm fine
But I bet you can tell by the tone of my voice
It's just a lie
You knew what you had
You still walked away leaving me in this mess
You knew what you were doing to me
I guess I was too blind to see
you hit where it hurt and you fooled me so bad
But I'd do it again to relive what we had
There are many things left to remind me
Of a love that I just can't leave behind me
My love for you is deep and meaningless.

Empty spaces fill me up with holes
Distant faces with no place left to go
I tried to go on like I never knew you
I’m awake but my world is half asleep
I pray for this heart to be unbroken
Voices tell me I should carry on
But I am swimming in an ocean all alone
Through this pain I refine
Tearing me from within
Screaming to be released
Something wasn't right
I could feel it again feel it again
It wasn't the first time
That you left me waiting
Sad excuses and false hopes high
I saw this coming still I don't know why
I let you in deeper into me
Your empty words
Your broken promises
Dashes
Everywhere I go
Everyone I meet
Every time I try to fall in love
They all want to know why I'm so broken
Why am I so cold?
Why I'm so hard inside?
Why am I scared?
What am I afraid of?
I don't even know
This story's never had an end
I've been waiting
I've been searchingI've been hoping
I've been dreaming you would come back
But I know the ending of this story
You're never coming back