isn't there anything i can do? anything i can help? i feel so helpless, someone pull me out of this pit. i hope that person is you. i'm sorry for thinking that way in the first place, i shdnt have. i know it hurt you although you chose to keep mum, i just have to say sorry. if there's anything i can do to make it up, tell me k? i'm willingly do it. i'm getting scared, scared like never before. what consequences? what dreams? i hope its not what i really dread. i will never stand again, if that was the case.

dear, y do u always ask me to just leave you? i can never do that. i love you alot, more than anything else, i really do.

paint our life stories,
dull or brightly coloured
they may be,
it is gold to me,
i love you.